J.E.L.L.Y. WORLD

Word of the Day :p

2012-02-07T18:22:00.002+08:00

I just learned a word today which is , wallflower

Wallflower means someone, usually in high school, who sees everything, knows everything, but does not say a word. they are not loners. they are introvert, meaning they are shy and have a social disease. they cannot handle having someone pay attention to them even though they crave it as much as everyone else. wallflowers are just phased in, and faded into the background.

yeah~ I think I'm a wallflower :/

My current ringtone :D

2012-02-06T12:08:00.000+08:00

It was like a time bomb set into motion . We knew that we were destined to explode .
were're like a time bomb ~~

You were saying ? [this post might annoy you so, be prepared]

2012-02-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

I'm Fat , I'm lazy , I'm a procrastinator , I overthink too much , I'm awkward , I'm not good in studies , I like to give excuse , I'm not talented , I'm lame, I'm ordinary , I'm not special , I'm socially awkward , I'm shy , I'm fugly , I'm not smexy , I'm not creative , I don't have sense of humour , I' m dumb , I'm weird ......

WELL

One More Month :((

2012-02-06T11:55:00.002+08:00

one more month to exam :(( I'm gonna do revision more often , that means less time to surf the net and less time for Tumblr O__O I hope i can do it ! ^___^

YOSHI !!

Happy Birthday :D

2012-01-28T15:58:00.002+08:00

Dear JoEe :D happy happy Birthday ^___^

I do not have anything to give you but .. Have a Blessed Birthday and God Bless yea ;) and woah you're officially Nineteen years old edi , stay beautiful :]

Here I'll give you a picture of spongeBob ( =

and

Mua :p

lololol anyways .. Happy Birthday :D

Monday don't come so soon TT.TT

2012-01-28T13:15:00.002+08:00

Ughhh
I haven't even touch my homework yet :( I don't know where to start . NO PROCRASTINATION anymore , I gotta start to work hard already . Let INFINITE be my inspiration on hardworking traits :DD

Yoshi !! GoGoGo :)

ONE DIRECTION S2

2012-01-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

Gotta be youuu~

can we fall ? one more time ...... it's gotta be youuu~ only youuu~~ it's gotta be youuu ~~ only you~~ ;)

satu benda :p

Na Na Na ~

yeah yeah yeah Xp

Who's my favourite in One Direction ? Hmmmm .. so indecisive , i can't choose hehe
maybe Louis :p

sharing time :p

2012-01-23T16:03:00.003+08:00

i wanna share a few videos for you who are reading this :)

firstly .. a funny version of the opening theme song for 20th fox century
here you go :D

secondly , a super cool shuffling song ^__^ I'm trying to learn this but it's just too difficult so I've given up on it :p anyways , you should watch this cuz it's good lol

thirdly , IT'S WAR !! hahas the song title :) the music video is quite interesting too , go watch (:

okay that's all for now , bye~
Happy Chinese New Year !!! Eat a lot yea :D

Happy Lunar New Year !! :D

2012-01-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY !! :D
frankly, i'm not feeling the cny mood .. why ??? anyways , i hope for the best in 2012 , a new year , a great start . I haven't written down my new year's resolutions yet , maybe i'll do it later :)

I wanna be more hardworking this year , more independent , more discipline , more mature , more cheerful , more understanding , more productive , more efficient , more diligent , more determine and etc :]

Quote of the day ;)

2012-01-08T19:41:00.001+08:00

The time spent studying is not important, it's about how practical you spend that time ^____^

High-five man !! C:

eighteenth ;)

2011-12-22T11:17:00.002+08:00

yeapppppp i'm officially eighteenth :D Not that excited actually haha cuz this year seems different from previous birthdays :/ idk why cuz i've grown up maybe :p plus , i'm ageing :(( lol

You know that you've grown up when birthdays doesn't make you super excited :p

blahh~
this year gonna end soon , this year have lots of changes , and i bet next year will have more changes :D

anyways , Christmas is on this Sunday !!! yayyy :) my cousins from singapore and kl will be coming this Friday ^___^ hooray [lame word lol jkjk]

* pout *

2011-12-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

OKAY this is really epic phail , big time ! i thought i can like don't online for three days but yeah , phailed :p oh well

2011-12-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

Procrastination doesn't rock at all . It sucks to the core :( Sometimes , i don't really like holidays cuz holidays make me lazy like a pig. All i did so far were eat , drink and sleep oh and also a lot of video watching on youtube ... sigh :p Therefore , i will set a rule , no internet for 3 days O__O Do you think i can accomplish that ? Hopefully i can ^__^

Anyways , i hope everybody will be happy always !!

Don't be like me [emo for no reason kiddo]

I'm BACK !!

2011-12-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yeap , my blog is updated again :D and oh blogger have changed its dashboard and stuff edi , a bit not used to all these yet but time will help me to get used to this. Well , i'm not the type of person who get used to changes easily , i need time hehe :p oh well , i'm a stubborn gal , you know.

Just had a movie marathon with mei wan today at kinta city :D it was fun , we didn't plan it , we just make the choice to watch two movies unexpectedly. We watched Arthur Christmas and Breaking Dawn part 1. Both movies were quite good but the breaking dawn's ending was just so incomplete lol there're so many suspense in the end. That's why breaking dawn part 2 will definitely be in my must watch movie list 2012 ;) As for Arthur Christmas , it's magical, meaningful and heart-warming.

Add on: Christmas is just around the corner !! :))

yeaaa

2011-11-01T06:00:00.001+08:00

i looked weird with makeup on :/ it's like so not me . And yea, sixth form night was on last Saturday , and i didn't quite enjoy myself that night cuz those heavy makeup made me sleepy . Our class performance wasn't that satisfying but well , at least we'd enjoyed ourselves on that stage .. like syok sendiri saja . blah~ I found out that I'm not easily satisfied lol and yea, i still can't find myself , still pretending to be someone who will not be hated by everyone else --- which is impossible --- I'm afraid of rejection and disappointing someone , I'll end up feeling guilty even though it's just a minor tiny little thing . I'm struggling to search for my talents , my personalities , my hobbies and me myself . Who am i ?

smile girl smile

2011-10-28T23:06:00.003+08:00

yea , i haven't been smiling these days cuz imma so busy :( even though this week supposed to be a holiday for me but i have to wake up at 6am everyday to go to school to practice for the sixth form night :(( today i window-shopping-ed in ipoh parade alone and ate sushi alone .. gahh~ not fun at all , i felt like a loner -.- i guess i'm afraid of the feeling of being lonely.

anyways

hopefully tomorrow's performance will turn out great ^^

less than 3 , peeps :D

i bet everyone feels like this sometimes

2011-10-23T12:48:00.006+08:00

Have you ever ignored by others ? As if you're a nobody in this world ? Well , I have.. You see , I'm always the quiet one , but inside me , I'm the worst person you'll ever met . I just don't like to open up myself to others cuz i know not everybody cares what you think or what problems you're having . That's why , i tend to keep those unpleasant feelings or sad thoughts to myself cuz i don't wanna trouble others ,well , except my mom haha she knows almost everything about me. Anyways, i feel that people don't care about what i said , and they like .. taken me for granted. Usually , I'm the one who start conversation with others ,and I'm tired of it edi. Can't somebody just talk to me ? I'm tired of making the first move :/

But as Christian , we should give and not take all the time. That's why , I'll continue to make the first move , well , that's my trademark ... making the first move -.-

this song explains me so well .. except that i don't hurt myself, duh~ lol

I look happy on the outside but inside i'm unhappy . i need a hug , a warm hug .

butterfly fly away

2011-09-25T17:56:00.003+08:00

imma gonna learn this song with guitar :D I know this song is very old edi but i love this song so much .

miley cyrus used to be my role model :/ until she changed , no i mean grew older .

GoGoGo

2011-09-25T17:42:00.006+08:00

i'm currently watching a korean drama called The musical :) The drama is about music and pursuing your dream haha obviously :p

oohhh my brother will be coming back from usa next sunday yayyy so long havent see gor gor edi , kinda miss him la , miss his perasan comments hehe . So that means i'm going to kl next sunday yayy i better revise more first , if not i won't have enough time to finish my revision . i don't want to phail my maths and bio again !!

this song is my favourite in the drama , idk why, but it kinda motivates me to do revision like now ahha maybe after posted this ;)

hoping tomorrow will be a great day :)

i don't wanna complain lah but

2011-09-18T17:27:00.008+08:00

this week is like a roller coaster ride . There's lot of ups and downs recently .

my exam is in two weeks time .. omg .. D: plus there's a graduation night for upper sixes and we lower sixes have to perform something for them , for their entertainment lolol . That reminds me of my graduation night last year .. ahhh good times haha :) And i'm going to dance a korean song .. sigh with all these things pack together , i might go crazy , i just need some air to breathe :/

heh this is the song that i'm gonna dance :p

can't believe that i'm gonna dance this rofl

song that encourages me :)

2011-09-18T17:12:00.008+08:00

the lyrics of this song are really meaningful and encouraging :D this will be my motivation :D

Right now the fact you're having a hard time is the proof that you have worked hard :]

i'm such a _ _ _

2011-09-08T22:16:00.009+08:00

I'm being a bi**ch lately . Seriously , what's wrong with me ? I talk bad about someone behind her back and I just can't control my mouth . Darn it! Can't i just keep my mouth shut or say it to her face ? uggghhh i'm angry at myself .

I should probably apologize to her , i really owe her a huge apology :/

Merdeka Day .

2011-08-31T14:06:00.006+08:00

Happy 54th Birthday , Malaysia :]

ohh and also Selamat Hari Raya , Maaf Zain dan Batin .

This year , I spent malaysia's independence day more productive than last year cuz last year i was busy doing revision for spm :/

I woke up at 6am today , am i crazy or what ? lol

nuhh ~ i was going for mountain climbing with my lower six classmates :p at first i was super happy cuz it was raining this morning , means --- plan cancelled . Actually i don't feel like mountain climbing cuz i have low stamina :p However , we still managed to mountain climb at 9am . There are a few routes for us to choose which are 42 , 43 and 49 . We chose route 42 which supposedly is the easiest route . Buttt , i got a bit dizzy and i vomited (there's still other ugly things happened to me but i prefer not to write in here) . Then, there were three people helped me to reach the hill top . They are really kind and helpful . Thanks guys :D and others who had waited for me to reach the mountain top :] thanks , really i meant it from the bottom of my heart . gosh , i'm being cheesy now :/

Although it was kinda embarrassing but i learnt some lesson from this , that is if you really really needed help , just ask

; help those who are weak .

the perfect song for this :D

you can count on me

like one two three

i'll be there :D

Enjoy your holiday, people :]

2011-08-30T14:12:00.003+08:00

I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

Why do i try ?

I know that I'm gonna fall down

i am beautiful :D

2011-08-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

it's just a self comforting thingy , cuz i'm in a bad mood right now HEH . i feel so empty :/ as if i don't have friends but actually i have . Sometimes , i'm angry at myself and i just wanna shout at myself to stop being moody . Can i ? lol

confessions of a girl , not :p

2011-08-25T23:35:00.005+08:00

Have you ever feel empty out of a sudden and you have no idea why that happens to you ? yeap , that's how i'm feeling right now :p I feel like a loser and i have the urge to make myself useful to others and to let others to feel proud when i'm with them . However , it always fails to happen .

fret

2011-07-30T00:48:00.008+08:00

ohh yea i can't sleep but i don't really feel like studying that's why i'm blogging right now :p hehe my mom just scolded me yesterday for not having a goal in my stpm and motivation for me to study hard . Guys , just wanna ask , what pushes you forward everyday to be better in everything you do ? I realised that i like to give excuses especially lame excuses . And i know because of my excuses , a lot of people are growing hatred towards me . Really sorry guys , it's not like i wanted to :/

i once heard someone saying this >> i'm not gonna give reasons or explanations because you will think what i said are all lies and excuses .

hmmmm what do you think ?

anyways , i think i underestimated form six :P you need to be discipline and independent throughout form six . And from those experience , you'll be able to face the dangerous and challenging world out there .

I know this will sound random but i love you , friends :D

i wanna be pretty

over-think much ?

2011-07-15T23:17:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really wish i could just be an ignorant person who ignores and doesn't care about anything in life . Cuz i think too much edi and it's making me go cuckoo .

forget ? i'm not sure i could .

lalalalala

2011-07-11T00:24:00.004+08:00

I've been feeling really down lately . PMS-ing ._.

After entering lower six for more than two months, i realised lots of stuff , stuff that i wouldn't even bother to care last time cuz i just don't wanna know about those stuff lol . I've made this sounds so wrong hahaha .

Oh well , those stuff are my friends have changed or is it because i never bother to care .. idk ...

for example , my closest friend since primary school changed a lot like tremendously , I'm actually quite happy for her . I always knew that she can be cross those boundaries and be a confident and capable person . I thought to myself , When is it my turn to become like that , to get respect or to let others look up to ?

"You're an exceptional person" , my mom said .

Why ? Because i am a tortoise , I'm always slower than others but if i put more effort in , i can do really well . I doubt that last sentence , i can do really well .

Thus , i will have my chance to shine , all i need is patience , effort and believe in myself and God .

Besides that , i got to know who my friends really are , that is , they are smart and beautiful :) Some of my friends gotten closer with me while some are getting further away from me .

I love you , chingu(friends) and thank you for being a good friend to me ^_^

Highlight for today :

my guitar string snapped during guitar lesson LOL I have always wanted to see my guitar string snap XD but i never imagine it would be this sudden :p anyways Thank God , my guitar teacher got an extra guitar string . Then , she replaced it for me . Thank You , teacher :) if you didn't bring an extra guitar string , i will have to postpone my guitar lesson to next sunday lol

lalalala whatever lalalala it doesn't matter lalalala =]

nights peeps .

200th post!!

2011-06-12T16:23:00.006+08:00

wow i can't believe that i've posted that much on my bloggie :) i'm getting moody these days , and worse of all i don't even know why i'm moody =.= uggghhhh Blame the hormones lol XD

sometimes , i tend to worry a lot like really a lot , and worrying is just crap la , there's no good outcomes in it . I should probably stop worrying and start enjoying [idk] ..

i just can't keep everything to myself especially when someone pisses me off . But then , when i listen or recall the song "so yesterday" by hilary duff , i'll stop holding grudges or being calculative? lol

If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday
So yesterday
I'm just a bird
Thats already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

anyways , i hope can survive form six or until end of august where my one-week of holiday will start :D yeap , school gonna reopen tomorrow and i hope time will stop or fast forward to november or even better , december ^__^

......

seeing or hearing my friends who are already in uni working diligently in their studies makes me wanna work hard too lol

All the best , you guys :D

less than three , yo ;)

google guitar is so cool ^^

2011-06-10T11:34:00.004+08:00

i know i'm kinda late edi lol actually i discovered it yesterday but don't feel like blogging :D

anyways ... i can play fiction by b2st using google guitar har har :]

hmm the link to it :

http://goo.gl/doodle/Rcp95

i feel so proud of myself lol nah just kidding :p

who says nice guys finish last LOL

2011-06-09T11:46:00.002+08:00

ryan and kevin are so hilarious XD

here's the lyrics for this song - nice guys ^__^

CHORUS
Nice guys finish last,
That's why I'll treat you like trash,
It's not what I really wanna do.
But, you only date bad guys so,
I'll give it my best try to,
Treat you the way you want me to.

VERSE 1
I never open a door,
or pull out a chair.
You can tell me how your day was
but I don't really care.
And if you ever get cold,
you'll just have to hack it,
Cause I'd be cold too
If I gave you my jacket.
Like WHOA, you ain't sittin up front,
Front is for the homies you can sit in the trunk.
I never answer my phone,
Whenever you call it
And when the waiter brings the bill
I never reach for my wallet.

CHORUS

VERSE 2
And Ima BEAT you!
At every competition.
Going out with the girls
You better get my permission.
Wait no, i take that back, you can't go,
House is on tonight
And that's my favorite show!
Do I look fat in this dress?
Hell yeah you do!
Wait lemme speak your language
Cows go Moo!
Mooo Moooo Mooo MOOOO!

CHORUS

BRIDGE
But behind the scenes she means the world to me.
Wanna tell her that she's beautiful, and show her that she's loved.
Hold her hand when she's scared, tell her how much I care...
But that won't win her heart BECAUSE....

Nice guys finish last...

both of them never cease to entertain me XD

there he goes again ._.

2011-06-08T22:51:00.005+08:00

why my dad have to comment in everything that i like ? for example --- my precious kpop artist and kdrama :| he told me that Koreans are rude , stupid and boring OMG 0_0 you have no idea how kpop have helped me in the past and also right now :D last year when i was kinda stressed for my spm exam , i listened to kpop songs and some English songs to relieve my stress . Besides, when I'm moody , kpop had helped me a lot :] i tend to be joyful when listening or watching kpop stuff ^_ ^

blah~~

you're not gonna bring me down Bluek =P my love for kpop will never cease no matter what you say , daddy :) muahahahaha *evil laugh*

Freeze by Beast

chiao~

Fiction Fiction Fiction :)))

2011-06-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

yayy i like this song :)

cheers for scotty and also lauren :)

2011-05-28T23:27:00.005+08:00

it doesn't matter who wins , cuz i'll be happy for both of them cuz they're great singers :]

[ by the way Scotty won ;) ]

and ohh there's this singer called Reeve Carney performed during the grand finale of american idol .... let me tell you this dude is just perfecto lol

isn't good enough

2011-05-22T21:35:00.005+08:00

this song speaks a thousand words :)

life does goes on after spm

2011-05-22T20:36:00.006+08:00

I had a pretty long holiday after spm exam :) haha when i say it is a pretty long hols , means six months . Everybody that i know spent those six months wisely , for instance , they worked , they travelled , they learned up new stuff , national service .. etc . Well , as for me , i just surfed the internet for the whole day , went to church service every saturday , occasionally follow mommy to her cell group meetings , learned guitar and still learning , read ...... and so on .

I've just started studying lower six in sam tet on 9th of May and i'm in a biology class . Yes i heard that stpm exam is very difficult .. blahblahblah .. but what is easy in life ? everything is hard and require lots of hard work . So i'm gonna be diligent and smart to overcome those problems that i will face in future . To be honest , i don't really like form six cuz i don't feel like myself in my class but i know that that's a lame excuse . Actually i don't feel like myself no matter where i go ,so it doesn't matter that much to me . Ever since i step into my class , i feel stressed cuz almost all my classmates are incredibly smart and i'm afraid i can't keep up with them . That's why i've been kinda miserable this whole week .

I pray that God will give me strength and wisdom to handle everything .

What i've found special so far in sam tet is the school bell :) the school bell for form six is different from other forms . In fact , it's a piano intro for a song by hillsong - oceans will part :) i feel joyful everytime i hear the school bell :D

my school bell sounds like the part from 0:00 to 0:27 ^__^

49 days

2011-05-06T01:43:00.003+08:00

I haven't cry like this for like ages already . This korean drama - 49 days is just so sad D: just finished watching episode 16 of this drama RAW ~ but i still cried . Those people in this drama are such great actors and actresses .

ooohh i have a question , is it normal for my dog to be emo ? hmm because my dog is kinda depressed these few days ... :|

what ??

2011-05-04T23:45:00.004+08:00

i love justin bieber's new song - that should be me ..

Hey don't judge me , people . I'm not a belieber but i kinda like all his songs .. idk why either . Hmmm..

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,

Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!!
Never should've let you go
That should be me!

this song is meaningful .. i didn't like it because it's a justin bieber song but i like this song because it's deep :| lol

2011-05-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

Take a breath, I close my eyes
I am lost but try to find
What it is in this life that gives me strength enough
To fight for something more

Well, God knows my feet are aching
And I've got mountains ahead to climb

One way at a time I'll try to lend these broken hands of mine
Give my strength, be my light
One way at a time these walls will fall and fill our empty souls
Give me strength, help me guide these broken hands of mine

The sky is grey, it clouds your world
Clear the air, child, break the mould
I find a place in your heart
To build a shelter from this cold and winding road

Well, God knows you're barely standing
But you've got to carry this heavy load

One way at a time I'll try to lend these broken hands of mine
Give my strength, be my light
One way at a time the peace will grow and fill our empty souls
Give me strength, help me guide these broken hands of mine
Oh, these broken hands of mine

What if there's more
What if there's more
What if there's more than this
What if there's more out there?

One way at a time I'll try to lend these broken hands of mine
Give my strength, be my light
One way at a time the peace will grow and fill our empty souls
Give me strength, help me guide these broken hands of mine
These broken hands of mine

Friday is Forever

2011-04-29T07:03:00.002+08:00

ooohh today is the Royal Wedding of Prince William and Kate . can't wait haha >:D

i wanna be a rockstar and living the dream .

2011-04-26T18:09:00.004+08:00

found a new song again haha i can be a freaking trender already in a good way hahas , i kept discovering on new songs :D

this band is call Allstar Weekend :]

B1A4

2011-04-25T01:19:00.005+08:00

omg there's this new boyband group which is so cute and joyful :] listening to their song makes me smile hahas

My Bias in this boy group :]

GongChan

JinYoung

why oh why

2011-04-22T16:43:00.003+08:00

out of a sudden i'm super excited for Christmas :p

but it's only April now , still have 200++ days until December :o

awww :(

penang

2011-04-20T22:30:00.005+08:00

yeap i went to Penang yesterday :D it was fun cuz i had the chance to board a ferry with my parents' car on the ferry itself .. hmm sounds complicated oh nvm lol

I'm standing beside THE BEATLES !! HEH

whaaat ? i like rocks >;D

breathtaking haha

somewhere in hard rock hotel :]

yayy swimming pool and beach :D

YOU

2011-04-18T00:09:00.006+08:00

YES you !! the one who is reading this right now .

just wanna tell you that you're beautiful in your own way cuz that's what Ray Stevens said .

and don't be discouraged by others

why is everyone so serious ?

2011-04-17T22:14:00.005+08:00

it's not about the money money$$ , we don't need your money money$$ ~

---

so yea .. only a few people knew that i'm taking guitar lessons recently but that's not the main point . My music teacher asked me to play a song , mandarin song hmmm .. yea i don't quite like mandarin songs , well , cuz mandarin songs are so emo-ish :P just saying~ .. but then my teacher asked me to play a Lee Hom's song and this song is just awesome . i really like this song :D idk why lol

here~~

the first stanza? or first verse of the song already caught my attention

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛

Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink

butterfly :D

doink *

2011-04-13T14:17:00.003+08:00

i found hope

2011-04-12T22:29:00.004+08:00

i was about to give up being the nice person all the time until i've seen this :) thanks God .

miss invisible

2011-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

i can relate to this a lot .

all you need is trust,faith and a little pixie dust

2011-04-12T13:32:00.012+08:00

I'm envious how others can complain to their friends . Well , cuz i can't . I guess i'm afraid all my friends will hate me if i do complain and they'll runaway from me , then , i'll be forever alone . That's why my relationship with them ain't getting any closer. I have trust issues . I think , friendship will last longer if one is willing to share their thoughts or even complaint . But , i have no one to share my problems to except my diary , blog and tumblr . I'm really afraid they'll turn away from me and .... i'll be crying alone at the corner ......

Hope one day , i can overcome this problem .

i have a feeling that everyone hate me cuz i'm a quiet and shy girl .

i wanna talk everything that i want but i'm not good in expressing myself and i'm afraid to be judged . [i kinda miss being a child cuz no one will judge you]

sigh~

and i love being alone but i hate being lonely especially when i'm surrounded with people but i still feel lonely D:

at times like this , i just remind myself how God and my parents love me no matter how unattractive i am.

i don't like too much attention but i don't like to be ignored either.

shy people notice everything , but they don't get noticed .

well this is the story of my life

OTL

I'll try by Jonatha Brooke

Go Go power rangers

2011-04-12T13:29:00.004+08:00

i can't believe i watched this show when i was young hahas maybe i watched it because my bro was watching it .

hmm

anyway, i like the pink ranger the best cuz pink is my favourite colour .

take me to the beach

2011-04-11T22:31:00.006+08:00

i wanna go to the beach . i haven't been to the beach for more than 5 years already . i wanna feel the sea breeze and the wind blowing through my hair

awwww

knock

2011-04-11T00:48:00.004+08:00

i never get the knock knock joke ever lol ..

it's like :

"knock , knock "

"who's there?"

"santa"

"santa who"

"santa claus!! HoHoHo Merry Christmas!!"

hmm ?

i can't really relate to this

lol

anyway there's this song which i really like

THIS> song of the day - knock knock by Lenka

night !

annoying :|

2011-04-10T01:39:00.005+08:00

[personal]

why no people look for me to talk to ?

am i that unapproachable ? talk to me people .

srsly ?

WAE??

no way .. i ain't gonna buy it :) awwwww yeeeeaaaah !

gif credits to the original owner who is not me :]

2011-04-09T08:11:00.003+08:00

i wanna watch hunger games or maybe i should read the book first , hmm ? should i ?

lol anyway this movie gonna be great i believe :D

FRYDAY

2011-04-08T14:49:00.007+08:00

yayyy .. it's Fryday :)

but i'm not feeling it .

I'm a social retard , i'm not gonna meet anybody until the end of the month >:]

See you by the end of April :| don't worry time flies , in just a blink of eye , it'll be end of April :D

~~my friends all make me feel so left out.~~

bunny bunny

2011-04-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

i've watched HOP on monday and i just remembered how i used to like this song :]

i want candy ;) you want me ? lol just kidding haha

2011-04-06T01:36:00.006+08:00

[personal]

i wanna buy a LBD - Little Black Dress :|

just looked into my wardrobe and there's no LBD . I only have jeans and t-shirts :/ and also two dress which only a 12 year old would wear :O oh gosh , i really should buy some dress or skirts or shorts soon ..

Project 101 :

-buy a LBD/skirts/shorts

-buy nail polish

-buy heels

-buy contact lenses ?

i'm a videostar hahaha

2011-04-05T22:11:00.003+08:00

Just kidding lol

.......

but i really do 'cameo' in this music video below ^___^ i'm super satisfied and exhilarated by this video :] i'm a star hahaha

my current fav song : Rescue

everyone needs rescue ;)

uhmm yeah

2011-04-05T15:08:00.010+08:00

So i signed up for guitar class last Sunday :] I was anticipated for the lesson at first but i was kinda disappointed when i saw my guitar teacher :| She's kinda not what i expected or even imagined , she doesn't even looked like a music teacher :O Since i have no music background , i have to learn music theory from the scratch . yea i started from Grade 1 . I've never like music theory since i was in elementary school cuz i never once understood what those semibreve or quavers meant . And i failed my music paper when i was in primary school :P then i promised to myself that i will never learn music ever again cuz i phail the music test :D

BUT

ever since i joined the youth in st peter church , i have a thing for ...... GUITAR so

i decided to learn to play the guitar now and my beloved teacher taught me both music theory and guitar lessons ..

even though i don't quite like it but i have to learn it since i've already paid for it ;) HEH

it was kinda challenging cuz i gotta have a good memory for learning music theory cuz most of it is about memorizing :\ no wonder those people who's learning music , have good memory hehe

Nothing can bring me down including music theory and studies and etc

I'm gonna do my best !! :)

song of the day : 0330

My music teacher was not friendly at all ,well, i just gotta bear with her for the sake of learning to play the guitar well .

difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life.

wowowowowow

2011-03-30T16:44:00.004+08:00

Last Friday , i got sacked from my job hehe let's celebrate !! cuz i don't have to teach chinese ever again woohoo~

okay so there's this contestant in thailand's got talent show :) that contestant was amaaazing , watch this video now :)

wasn't she/he amazing !! i admired her/his courage . Fighting !!

d'awww all the way

2011-03-28T22:57:00.006+08:00

i just finished watching a thai movie . yea i know , thai movie = horror movie :P lol i am so wrong about that haha not all thai movies are horror movies . I totally love this movie - CRAZY LITTLE THING CALLED LOVE ^__^ the movie is about high school crush and a bit like the ugly little duckling . And most of all it is not just some love stories but there's lesson behind it . I don't know what to say about this movie edi .. This movie is just full of awesomeness . Just watch it lol you will not regret ;)

and oh the lead actress looks like sandara park :)

2011-03-28T19:41:00.004+08:00

while everyone has enrolled into college or university , i'm chilling at home doing nothing :D life's good ^____^

but nothing last forever , maybe after in one month, i'll be sitting in a classroom in school uniform and have to do homework again O_O Therefore , i shall enjoy my doing-nothing-life first hahahas ..

oh ya , i wanna watch sucker punch , red riding hood , i am number four , beastly , pirates of the carribean 4 :D

truths

2011-03-28T00:03:00.007+08:00

Everyone has a secret they haven't shared. Everyone has a past no one's heard about. Everyone has talents that people don't notice. Everyone has weaknesses hidden inside. Everyone has a story left untold, so never start judging someone thinking you know them back to front. Because the truth is, you probably don't.

“The hardest part about growing up is letting go of what you were used to, and moving on with something you’re not.”

"Always do what you want . Don't mind what other people might say because whether you do it or not , other people always has something to say ."

source from tumblr

worried

2011-03-27T23:44:00.004+08:00

just now i was watching anime - kimi ni todoke ep 10 .. then out of a sudden, there's this earthquake warning appeared on screen , and i was so worried about the citizens of Japan :'( i pray that they'll have strength to handle this disaster :/ i pray that God will watch over them and protect them :|

Even the tsunami and major earthquake had happened but they still have on and off tremors every single day cuz the foundation of the ground weaken edi, i think . Can you imagine how the citizens of japan felt everyday ? it's like they're living in fear of everything .

Japan and Myanmar , you're in my prayers .

2011-03-27T18:04:00.001+08:00

satisfactory

2011-03-23T20:47:00.003+08:00

i'm satisfied with my results but obviously they were not .. but idc :PP

tomorrow is D-DAY !!

2011-03-22T15:47:00.006+08:00

I'm feeling excited

(wrong emoticon but this is hilarious lol)

yet nervous as well

I'm going cuckoo already .

No matter what the outcome is, i will draw a curve across my face .

beautiful disaster

2011-03-22T00:07:00.004+08:00

don't judge me , i'm not talking about japan . I feel very bad for japan . I wish I can do something for them but I don't have the capability to donate tons of money to them . All I could do is to pray for them :|

anw

song of the day :

Beautiful Disaster by Jon Maclaughlin (the guy who sang so close in enchanted)

longest 72 hours ever

2011-03-20T18:23:00.003+08:00

I really hope I can get satisfying spm result but then what should i do after i got my result despite good or bad .. ? my future is so uncertain hmm ..

booyah

2011-03-19T15:55:00.005+08:00

awkward moment when someone thinner than you says they're fat .....

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okay so spm result will be coming out next wednesday uhmm okay :D haha FINALLY !!! i've been waiting for months for this day to come . At Last haha

kid are so ..... innocent ?

2011-03-18T01:54:00.006+08:00

yea they really are and also playful as well .

I got a part time job as a tuition teacher to gain experience ?

Today i went for 'tuition teacher training' to teach standard 2 and 3 students. In the first one and a half hours , i was observing how to teach the kids . The last fifteen minutes , i was asked to teach the kids English [YAY~ my fav subject] . Now i understand how tough it is to be a teacher .

Cuz

When i was teaching for fifteen minutes , the kids were shouting and playing . and i was standing there and having a major headache from their incredible loud voices :O I have no choice but try to scold them but it was a epic PHAIL !! they were even louder than before .. i guess my voice was not loud enough ~.~

After the class dismissed , the tuition centre boss told me that i only have to teach on Friday .. phew~ but guess which subject I'll be teaching ?

not a clue ?

the subject that i 'love' the most .. CHINESE

omg are you serious ? ughhhhhh~ i look composed after hearing that but inside of me i was struggling to scream and swearing non-stop LOL just kidding ..

How am i gonna teach the kids something that i suck at ?

p.s. : i failed my chinese subject throughout my whole primary years

hopefully i can handle the standard 2 and 3 chinese :(

smile :)

2011-03-16T13:35:00.002+08:00

so.. smile you people :D

blah

2011-03-15T19:17:00.008+08:00

I find this kinda hilarious lol

ahh this reminded me of Dream High of course lol and uhmm Disney fairytale stories especially Cinderella and Peter Pan .. aww I missed being a kid ~

I miss watching That's so raven and phil of the future :] ohh and the suite life of zack and cody

oink

2011-03-15T18:47:00.002+08:00

Ahh my bias in Mblaq (Lee Joon) and IU cameo in this video .

what a cute video hahas

tumblr is fun :D

2011-03-15T18:30:00.006+08:00

I've opened a Tumblr account :

http://superjia.tumblr.com/

uhmm beware so my tumblr , it's filled with kpop stuff . Don't say i didn't warn ya ;D

yea that name sounds funny but i like :D lol

Superjia to the rescue >:)

yea I've got my driving license edi .. i have no one to brag to so might as well brag in blog hahaha

Tee Hee

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2011-03-12T09:14:00.006+08:00

pray for Japan !!

When I heard Japan had an 8.9 magnitude earthquake , I didn't know what to do . That was so horrifying :O I eyes were like O_O when i saw the news . Hope the citizens in Japan are alright .

song of the day:

magnificent

2011-03-07T15:33:00.005+08:00

I just discover this song by Boyce Avenue :) They're awesome !!

Look at the way they play the guitar :D I hope someday I can play like that too :)

My Fav K-drama ever !!!

2011-03-02T12:41:00.013+08:00

Dream High was totally lovely :) I still can't believe Dream High has ended already . What should I do now ? imma so lost :o lol

Anyways , i honestly did cry when watching the last episode and their last song performed at the Dream High special concert .. Awwwww

That lil' girl is such a cutie pie :)

I'll miss them :') A Big round applause to the Dream High casts and the producer -- JYP :D

Lastly , I want to say that DREAM HIGH ROCKS !!!!

Banana Fever :D

2011-02-28T13:52:00.003+08:00

Who doesn't love banana ? It healthy and there's even a song for it . AND a show for it :: BANANAS IN PAJAMAS tee hee

hahahahaa enjoy~~

iyiyi

2011-02-28T13:45:00.004+08:00

ohhh another 'Justin Bieber' is unleashed :p

hmm .. i rather Tyler Ward or Julia Sheer to be popular than the kiddo ... nyiek nyiek ^^ Just kidding , he's actually not that bad , just that he's a kid . :/

lalalalala

2011-02-23T00:58:00.006+08:00

Next week will be the final episode of Dream High :/ awww .. I've just finished watching episode 15 of Dream High and I Love it :] This k-drama is really inspiring . Technically , the aim of this k-drama is to ask us to dream high ~ :) If you have a dream , then you should work on it . Maybe it will come true someday . It will ! That's why we should continue dreaming . Have a major goal in your life , live your lives to the fullest .

Neverland

2011-02-20T20:18:00.005+08:00

Peter Pan , please bring me to Neverland cuz I don't wanna grow up . Growing up is hard . Parents have higher expectation of you . Friends are more 'mature' than you , they tend to chat about things that you sometimes don't really quite understand . They always have those deep feelings over something . They think differently about something than you do . They have a more 'mature' thought . That's why I feel like I'm like a lil child in front of them :/

I used to think that growing up is fun but ... ~

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I learnt not to JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER .

Yea , I used to judge others by his/her looks . For example , when I saw a person who looks a bit stuck up , I would assume that he/she is a conceited person . BUT , recently I found out that I'm totally wrong about it . I feel so bad for judging he/her . From today onwards , I'm not gonna judge others ever again.

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I used to complain a lot like A LOT to my parents . For example ...

MOM : How's your day , dear ?

me : OHH , today sucked !! My friend , right ................ she's totally acting like a jerk ........... SHE's such an @#$ ...... She totally ignored me .. I don't wanna speak to her ever again.

[ mom was getting annoyed by me ]

MOM : oohhh you shouldn't treat her like that .. maybe she had her reasons ?? or she's having a bad day ..

me : NOOOooo .. she was perfectly fine , I can see that ..

MOM : ughhh , stop being so pessimistic ...

You can see how annoying a complaining person(me) can be . I myself didn't realise it until I have to listen to this friend who complains about everything . At first , I was smiling when listening to her complaint but later I lost interest in what he/she said and I just stared at the table . From that experience , I realised that I shouldn't complain . I should be thankful and grateful for everything . Although you had a bad day , you should look at it positively and shouldn't complain about it . Through complaining , it won't change anything at all . So , be grateful and thankful .

when you complain about something , the person who is listening will not feel very good either so don't be so self-centered , think about others as well , put yourself in their shoes . For example , you can see how my mom will feel when I'm complaining :0

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I still have a lot to learn , I might not be ready to go college yet , that's why I've decided to stay in my hometown and further my studies as a sixth former student . Perhaps in 2 years time , I'll be more ready for my future and my growing up lifestyle .

less than three

buin me :\

2011-02-13T17:51:00.009+08:00

If someone were to ask me - How are you ? What are you doing for this period of time ? My answer will always be the same :-

let name someone as X :)

Me : Hey~

X : Hello , how are you ?

Me : I'm fine , thanks . But I'm super bored .

X : Ohh , perhaps you can get a job ?

Me : Hmm , yea , I can't find job cuz they all need full-time workers ( long term workers ) , they don't want part-time workers . Other than that , I'm kinda lazy to work heeheheehe [whole bunch of excuses ;) ]

X : O.o ohh haha i see :/ okay see you soon , bye~

Me : okay , bye :)

dots dots dots

not bad indeed :P

2011-02-01T12:20:00.003+08:00

i love these songs :)

:))

wow

2011-01-28T15:43:00.006+08:00

These videos are from Youth Quake. Can you believe that I'm in those videos ? omg .. I looked funny :P

ROFL

2011-01-28T15:18:00.002+08:00

I'm in a kpop freak mode XD

2011-01-26T16:34:00.010+08:00

I admit haha that I'm a kpop freak :P yea . I practically like almost all the korean singers and actors . But this boy band right here rocks !! Infinite ^^

Image credits : http://unactivist.livejournal.com/11620.html

INFINITE HWAITING !!!

super excited :D

2011-01-26T15:08:00.007+08:00

YES !! finally , I can learn driving tomorrow :) I have this overwhelming feeling right now lol I'm afraid if I get too excited tomorrow , I'll be laughing and driving lol That will definitely scare the instructor away :P anyway , I can't wait for tomorrow , hope tomorrow will be fun and interesting .

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS ONLY FEW DAYS AWAY !! YAY :D

cookie monster~

2011-01-22T00:30:00.003+08:00

I'm a cookie monster and I wanna eat all those chinese new year's cookies . Cookies , please

anticipate the coming of COOKIE MONSTER !! LOL

mercy

2011-01-21T12:17:00.007+08:00

Justin Bieber .. hmm .. the sensational singer and he's just 16 years old . I used to dislike him lol cuz I think he's kinda immature but what should I expect from a 16 years old ? But then, he released this song --- PRAY . I like this song really much because this song is meaningful not like 'Baby'

"baby , baby , baby , oh~ " LOL

This song , PRAY , makes me realise that living in Malaysia, a country without wars , natural disasters , famine , is very fortunate . It is really fortunate indeed . Furthermore , we should have mercy for the victims of natural disaster , wars , famine and etc . If we can't help them financially , we can always give them support , encouragement and even a smile will do . But the best option is to pray for them . I think they deserve prayers and love from us :)

This song is really inspiring :]

no wonder ~

2011-01-21T11:54:00.011+08:00

Did you wonder why all my recent posts were all emo-ish ? well easy because I was pms-ing . LOL no wonder la .. yay now all those emo feeling gone edi .. YAY !! have to celebrate first :D let's buy a cake [just kidding :P]

I like today's weather , Sunny and Bright . It makes me feel joyful and cheerful . HAHA :P

I didn't expect days after spm or after I graduated will be this boring lol . I thought it'll be fun and everyday would be interesting BUT it turns out the other way . well , what i can do about it ? Get a job ? [nuh] Learn driving ? [ yes!! but I have to wait until next week for that . BOOO~ ]

Now I'm count downing to Chinese New Year !! waa darn excited for it . Especially the Food !! ang pau ? lol and most of all everyone gonna be back during CNY !! How fantastic is that ? YEAH !!!

ONE AND A HALF WEEK TO GO !! XD

oh ya ~ this is a very great song :) enjoy it~ use your earplugs yea

have a great day ahead !!

seungri is back !! lol

2011-01-21T11:18:00.006+08:00

this song not bad la , well , at least better than 'strong baby' haha :D This song is like combination of se7en and Jay Sean hehe

enjoy~

confusing

2011-01-20T11:49:00.005+08:00

We used to be close friends last time but things have changed . It's not our fault . I really wish I can read minds . I really have no idea what were you thinking . I don't know whether you hate or still treat me like a friend . You are so hard to predict . There's a time we were chatting happily and there's a time you don't even want to talk to me at all . It's confusing . Recently , I don't even dare to chat with you cuz I'm afraid you'll hate me for doing so .

BLAH ~

guilt

2011-01-19T23:31:00.004+08:00

I will always feel guilty whenever I lied . Everytime when I lied to someone else , I will feel really really bad and sometimes I feel like crying . such a crying baby . sigh~ I think there's this thing inside me warning or advising me not to sin . Actually lying is a sin . Even though it's a white lie but it still consider a sin . Yea , get that , that's how serious lying can be . hmm . The feeling of guilt is really terrible. It's horrible . My advice is don't do stuff that will make you feel guilty after you did it . Cuz , feeling of guilty sucks!!

I'm beautiful !!

2011-01-19T23:02:00.006+08:00

"Even when you feel ugly or depressed or guilty or ashamed, there is an inner spark in you which is light. This light is your beauty. This light is your reflection of God. You are a child of God, thus you are beautiful."

double sided ppl

2011-01-19T01:19:00.003+08:00

I dislike double sided people , they are confusing people . Come to think of it , actually I'm little bit one of them . I act differently in different situation or in front of different people . For example , I'm loud and noisy at home , whereas I'm quiet and shy in front of other people like my friends and etc .. I'm weird , ain't I ? I'll be a single sided person next time lol :\

uh oh :O

2011-01-19T01:01:00.003+08:00

uhmm , I think my mom is mad at me . It's entirely my fault , I admit it . I don't know what I can do about it . you see , all this happened because of my immaturity , my rudeness and lack of respect to mom . Sometimes rudeness can become a habit if you don't change it quick . That's what happened to me . Sometimes I don't think before I talk . And I don't realise what I said was wrong . Just now right , I was busy typing something for printing and my mom walked in and ask me something . And I found her annoying at that time , so , I said " Get lost " -.- kinda disappointed at myself . Then , I think my mom was either mad or hurt at that time . I just realised that actually I was rude to mom all the time . Sorry mom :/

they'll never change

2011-01-16T22:06:00.008+08:00

So my auntie from sarawak asked me whether I wanna go to her house and have fun (lol) during march and it'll be better if I go there before my results out. And she said she'll sponsor the airplane's ticket . If you were me , would you go ? or you rather stay in ipoh and rot until results is out . OF course I'll go but the thing is my mom and dad are reluctant to send me to go kuching, what? For goodness' sake , I'm not 12 now , I'm 18 EIGHTEEN for crying out loud !! Although i don't like what you're doing but I can't hate you cuz you're my parents (duh) sigh~~~ I thought my parents would be different from others but parents are indeed parents , they'll never change , not even when I'm 30 :'( I'll always be their baby girl , a 12 years old forever ~ In their eyes , I'll never be a grown up . Imagine what will happen if I begin to date in the future OMG I bet they'll set a curfew or a dress code and rules !! insanity !! This is really ridiculous .